Falling, falling, fallen

Friend: Are you just saying all these cos you cant find a man?

FA: Sorry?

Friend: Yea, I think you are saying stuff like you dont wanna marry or that you dont need a man cos you cant find one

FA: Ouch....

>_< People are so mean sometimes...

"You know you are screwed when there is divine intervention on your lack of love life"

I jus received a call from a dating service company for single professionals... they asked if I am interested in meeting up with their dating consultants for a free consultation to understand more about single dating habits blah blah blah...

I mean I know I am single... but I am single BY CHOICE... WTF...

For the first time in my life... I was led into the custom officer's office cos according to them, I was carrying excessive alcohol with me into the country. Pretty cool huh? I had checked their immigration website before I travelled and it says "1L of spirits, 1L of wine and 1L of beer" But that particular custom officer told me that I am only allowed 1L of ALCOHOL regardless of type... I was in two minds to tell him that there are people out there (ie. my friends) carrying more than 1L each and he has let them thru...

So I was either suppose to bribe him pay a duty to bring the extra 1L into the country or I had to leave it behind... Once again, I was in two minds to ask if I can drink it on the spot... I mean he said I cant bring it into the country, but if I drink it up, it doesn't count rite? but decided that I shall not challenge authority least I get deported back to my own country... so I left behind a litre of Absolut vodka. fuck man....

I am such a country bumpkin... I was invited to a girlfriend's birthday party on board a yacht a couple of days back and I was so damn excited abt it... yea well, that's cos I have never been on board a yacht before (in fact, if not for this party, I dont think I will EVER get to be on board a yacht for that matter.. God bless her)

Anyways, so I went for the party and had a wonderful time, the yacht was beautiful and chilling with my friends on the upper deck was almost divine =)

I wonder if I will ever get to be on board a yacht again... ...

Friend A: How is your love life?

FA: Nonexistence

Friend A: You should find someone to settle down with.

FA: ...

Friend B: You married yet?

FA: Nope

Friend B: Why? You should settle down soon.. stop working so hard.

FA: ...

Friend C: Seeing anyone lately?

FA: Nope

Friend C: Too busy?

FA: I'm patiently waiting to be found

Friend C: It's kinda hard for anyone to find you if all you do is hide at home you know?

FA: ...

Friend D: You my idol...

FA: Yea, like you said... good men stay at home, so why do I even bother to go out?

Friend D: Or there are gay my dear girl

FA: Yup yup. Men are like parking lots... all the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped

This seems to be the only thing my friends talk to me about these days... and I wonder why...

I am slowly losing myself... all these people around me are driving me mad... I need time to get reacquainted with myself again.

Not sure what's got into me lately... I am getting increasingly short tempered and am starting to feel empty and mediocre...

Was out looking at furniture with a friend last week. He's looking at renovating his whole apt and then as we were at the bedroom section, he pointed at something and said:

Friend: I am gonna get something like this

FA: (after taking a good long look) Isn't this a walk in wardrobe?

Friend: Yea

FA: Why do you need a walk in wardrobe? I thought only girls want walk in wardrobe... (cheekily) unless of course your gay...

Friend: (smile) I have a lot of clothes mah...

FA: Rite...  I have a lot of clothes too... and I dont have a walk in wardrobe... but I do have a guy friend who has more clothes than me, more shoes than me... and he's... (softly) gay (smirk)

Friend: Well.. if I have the space, why not?

FA: True true... so do you have like a drawer of cuff links too =P

Friend: No lah

The next thing we talked about was the color of the furniture...

Friend: The problem with my place is it doesn't get much natural light...

FA: Eh? too much forestry around it?

Friend: Yes somehow...

FA: Then you should pick light colored furniture to brighten up the room

Friend: I am going to leave it to the ID to do it... but I really dunno how he's gonna do it unless he open up the roof man..

FA: Open up the roof? You can have a retractable roof and we can star gaze!

Friend: No lah... not open up completely, like put in some glass panels...

FA: Glass panels... greenhouse effect no?

Friend: ...  

Now on to the kitchen section...

FA: Will your place have a kitchen?

Friend: Yea of course, have to complete the whole house mah...

FA: Oh... so you will have an oven, a stove, dont forget the dishwasher eh?

Friend: Nah... I seldom use the dishwasher

FA: SO you do your dishes with your hands?

Friend: yea...

FA: Ok.... hmmm... so you are going to get a kitchen....

Friend: Why? you think I cannot cook is it?

FA: No, no... I do not think you cannot cook... rather I think you'd be too lazy to cook... sides an open concept kitchen....

Friend: I am not going to do stir fry lah...

FA: K... but still...

I know he doesn't wanna talk to me anymore.... but still we continued to furniture shop... I am surprised he even asked what I like, it's not like as though we are moving in together... tho' I'd love to =P

Y: I'm flying off soon to Bangkok for a week... need anything?

FA: Oh cool... have a great trip! Yea, get me a love potion...

Y: I try...

FA: K, try really hard... I need a man, a rich and good looking one =)

Y: ...

>.<" FA has obviously gone crazy... but I think I can definitely do with a love potion (hahaha)

I do not know how to start off this particular post that I am trying to write... it is with such a heavy heart that I start typing away on my lappy... I have always knew that infidelity exists, that couples who were once in love can end up in a divorce, that men and woman can have affairs behind their partners' back etc etc etc... But to have that happen to someone close, somehow hooks up a totally different feeling inside of me...

For the lack of originality, we will call the wife A and the husband B.

A and B have been married for more than a decade now... infact they are about to celebrate their twelfth anniversary in another couple of weeks... A told me earlier this year when she discovered that B is having an affair and she doesn't know what to do. (What do you mean by you dont know what to do?) After much deliberation, A decided to speak with B hoping to work things out. She's asked B what was she doing wrong and even requested that B stop seeing the other woman. (Why do women like to think that it's their fault when their husband stray? Granted it takes two hands to clap and it's never clearly one parties' fault that a relationship sours... but isn't the fact that HE strays in itself clearly HIS fault?)

Anyways, B did stopped seeing the other woman for a while, but he couldn't stop thinking about her it seems. Things never really improved nor change until recently, B finally told A that he thinks they should separate. A was thrown into total disorientation and she's even getting anxiety attacks with palpitation. She's told me all these and I dont even know what to say... A doesn't want to separate as she still loves B... but B still wants to see the other woman...

I have known A and B for many many years now, B more than A... like I said, I always knew infidelity exists... but when someone I've known for years does it... it feels weird... I cant find the words to describe how or what I feel... I jus dont know what to say anymore...